This isn't what I want anymore
An illusion inside my heart alone
And lying next to you only makes me sad
Because I know that it isn't mine
This dream will shatter one day
Leaving just the pieces and the tears
How can I find the strength within
To just breathe and let you go?

Monday, April 25, 2011

Is this goodbye?

I've been on and off considering moving to a new home blog. Every once in a while I get this deep revelation of sorts where I wish I had a Twitter account with followers or an anonymous blog that people actually visited so I could share my pearls of wisdom. Alternatively, I could just have a private, online journal seeing as, let's be honest here, it's about the same in terms of the number of people reading it.

Anonymity aside, I feel that this blog is my designated "fangirling" blog. And now that that phase of my life has seemingly passed, perhaps it is just time for this blog to stagnate as well.

Now the real dilemma begins... choosing a name for my new blog. :\

Friday, March 18, 2011

I should be sleeping...

But instead here I am, at my laptop, contemplating the fate of my blog(s).

Since my fangirling tendencies seem to have calmed down for the moment, I was wondering about what I should do with ~blurry eyes~. I started this blog for the main purpose of attention whoring fangirling, as no one IRL really wanted to put up with my verbal diarrhoea about effeminate manchildren running around in make-up. As it turned out, this blog became a good ego boost; shameless as it is, I do sometimes read old entries and bask in the awesomeness that is my writing think that maybe I was somewhat semi-decent at formulating a coherent sentence. So I would like to continue blogging, I just don't know what to blog about. This blog is public (and will probably remain as such) and I'm not really one for posting openly about my private life even if practically no one reads this.

On a similar note, MSN Spaces (or whatever it was called) finally closed this week. I used to write in my blog there back in 2005 and 2006 but eventually stopped. I didn't even know MSN was shutting it down until earlier this week, so luckily I was able to download all my entries as well as transfer them over to Wordpress before that happened. Which again creates the dilemma of what do I do with it? Should I use it? Or should I simply leave it with my old entries solely for the purpose of nostalgia and storage?

I suppose it'll all come down to two things: whether I have time for blogging, and whether I have anything worthwhile to blog about. Perhaps this is good motivation to pick up a hobby?

On the bright side, I actually posted before the end of the month! Way to go me!

Monday, February 28, 2011

Self-imposed obligatory monthly post

So I'm clearly half-assing this whole blogging thing. Yet again, the entire month flew by without a single post... in fact, without more than five seconds of a mere thought of a post. Go me.

I think my fangirling days have officially come to a momentary end. My desktop wallpapers are no longer Reita *gasp* and I barely even listen to any of my prior fangirl-triggering music anymore.

But you know what that means. I have to edit my 'about me'. Which requires thought. And energy. And wit.

Damnit. Should have stuck to fangirling.

Monday, January 31, 2011

First post of the year. What.

How is it that I managed to not post anything until 31 days into the new year? Clearly, I should have made blogging more regularly my new year's resolution.

As it turns out, my brief obsession with the GazettE was, well... brief. I don't follow any news about them at all, aside from major things like the Tokyo Dome concert (and by that I mean that I know that it even happened, not actual details) and the Heresy fan club closing its doors to international (i.e. non-Japanese) members/applicants. I still like their music, I just don't fangirl over them anymore until I see Reita being all sexy as always.

I suppose the same could be said for SS501; I don't really follow them anymore, though I would say I'm a little more interested in their current endeavors than I am in the GazettE's. Speaking of which, the SS501 members are finally becoming more active, albeit individually. E.g., Park Jung Min recently released his first solo single album (he is looking FINE these days, btw) and Kim Hyung Jun is going to have a second season of that progamer show. I'll probably watch it, as long as it's as lulzy as the first season.

I also started listening to Park Hyo Shin recently; omg, that man's voice is just... I don't even have words for it. Unfortunately, he got drafted for the military last year December so we won't be seeing anything from him for a couple of years. To be honest, I'm not much of ballad lover but the few songs that I do love from him are awesome.

Man, I gotta started doing my obligatory monthly updates earlier so I don't have to rush. Or maybe just post more often than once a month.

Listening to right now: Edwin McCain - I'll Be