This isn't what I want anymore
An illusion inside my heart alone
And lying next to you only makes me sad
Because I know that it isn't mine
This dream will shatter one day
Leaving just the pieces and the tears
How can I find the strength within
To just breathe and let you go?

Friday, July 30, 2010

It's like an addiction

I was thinking about starting another blog, specifically for more personal entries (since this one is more or less just for fangirling and general interests, and the other is solely for creative works). I mean, it's not like hordes of people even read any of my blogs so what would really be the point of starting another one? It's quite simple really.

Hello, my name is Kryz and I am an attention whore addicted to blogging.

Also, I've found that my blogs are compartmentalised much like the rest of my life. A blog for fangirling, a blog for poems, a blog for personal entries. It truly reflects my need for organisation in my life.

Though, to be honest, my penchant for multiple blogs is a little more complex. Initially it starts off with my need for anonymity. Sometimes the attention whore part of me takes over and I make the blog public (this was the case with words laced with a little hate; shameless plug, hoho). In other cases, the blog is public but remains separate and completely secret, simply because it's easier to become someone else when no one you know is watching, and when you don't have loads of baggage weighing you down. And finally, it's because some people don't give a shit about my fangirling and would be more likely to read my entries if they maybe contained some nekkid pics had something to do with my life (this is debatable).

Multiple blogs also allow me to write in multiple styles. I can slip into different personas depending on the blog; for example, I write much more colloquially here and use more emoticons and the like to express myself, whereas on words laced with a little hate I adopt a more mellow, reserved style simply because of the nature of the blog.

I've been wondering if I should just link everything together though, except that I would lose the anonymity of that secret blog's name. Not only that, but then everyone would know the dirty, dirty things I do in secret, lol.

Listening to right now: FTIsland - 첫눈에 알아

P.S. This post has been sitting as a draft since Saturday, lol. I ended up not even editing it to make more sense.

3 comments:

  1. lol you're such a cell, with your blogs as organelles.

    I kinda understand the logic in keeping your blogs separate though. The same thing happened to me- a while back, I was adamant about keeping at least my TMA forum identity separate from say DeviantArt, Facebook, etc because my persona there is a bit colder and far more reserved.

    Eventually, I had reason to open up a bit there, but only because everyone else at TMA had started adding one another on facebook etc. It would've still been quite a change for them to see my meanness there, but my daily Muse quotes on facebook... but I see it's happened to a number of the others too. At the end of the day, we were a bunch of normal people who happened to act as bullies on that one forum, lol.

    I'm not really sure I would've linked everything without being "forced" to though. As you said, there's a good reason why everything is kept apart!

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  2. Do you realise that that rhymed? o_O

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